one happy weekend coming up

thank you so much for all your thoughts and comforting words in the comments to my previous post. it meant a lot to me.

everything went fine. N was a trooper and took the whole thing very well. in fact yesterday in the afternoon it was hard to tell that he had been going through dental surgery under full anesthesia the same morning. when he was playing in the garden, eating ice cream and when we had french fries for dinner (because that was what he ordered, and then i of course had to make it).

we have known for a while that he had to go through this. D had been much more worried than me. at least on the surface. i was pretty calm. until the days just before the procedure. then i started to get nervous. and feel bad about it. but i put on a good face like "nothing to worry about, they do it all the time". but at night when the rational mind is not there to keep guard, my mind would be full of all these terrifying scenarios and "what ifs". needless to say, i didn't sleep well for the last week.

yesterday around noon when we got back and the first yihaaa-rush of "it's done" had passed, i was overwhelmed with extreme fatigue. i had no power left in my entire body. i was empty. my eyes would literally close whenever i sat down and i'd drift away. it was almost scary, very surreal, and it made me realize how much my body has been filled with stress and anxiety the past few weeks.

today my boy is fine. we're all fine and back in summer mode. all three kids are in kindergarten this morning, D is off to his yearly beach volley tournament, and i need to catch up with work. and then we're off to the beach in the afternoon. like last week (where these photos were taken). summer business as usual.

this will be a happy weekend, i believe.