i love the light of the holidays. december was so full of candles. christmas calendar candles, advent candles, hanukka candles, and just candles. and fairy lights.
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i have been a mother of twin boys for four years. two years ago little D came along and joined the fun. still, mentally i have not fully adjusted to the new reality of the holidays. that holidays are not relaxing. not about sleeping in, cuddling up, forgetting myself in a book, watch episode after episode of a favorite show, eating brunch and reading newspapers for hours.
for the past four years holidays have been exhausting. not in a bad way, but still exhausting. they start early with three boys taking over my bed. and then the jumping, running, shouting, playing, talking, arguing, laughing, crying and everything else that comes along with those three little boys. and me and D trying to organize, direct, redirect, guide, comfort, entertain (or sneak in a moment to regain sanity). until by evening they are once again asleep. and i can hardly see straight anymore (see the photos ;)
and that's when the still comes. that sweet quiet that follows a day filled with the kind of noise only kids can make. happy, angry, ultimate, energetic, full of life. it blends with the silence in the air, and i need it, just like i need oxygen.
i still miss the old kind of holidays, and i dream about the day they will return. but i try to breath in the new times, every second of it. even when i'm about to go crazy. cause i know they will be over before i know it, and i will miss them too.
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need a few more holidays? jane of spain daily will lead the way.
great post ... I understand ...
ReplyDeleteYou are so honest... what a nice post, as usual... And now, try to get some time just for you! XXX
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteYou are so true and so honest: motherhood is the most magical and wonderful thing ever, but also a daily challenge (and I just have one kid ;))
this is lovely. i remember when we were little and really noisy and wild and were going on a family trip and it all got a bit much, my mum used to say: we are giving them memories. and that's so true. i'm sure your boys will look back on wonderful childhood memories when they are older! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, I know that story so well.
ReplyDeletei dont have three. i have two. but i fully understand.
ReplyDeleteawww.. i know it can get pretty crazy with three little boys... but you're right in taking it all in, the years go by fast and we don't want to miss anything right? i'm playing along too today :)
ReplyDelete:-)
ReplyDeleteI totally understand what you mean. How things change when we become mummies.
ReplyDeleteSo touching...lovely description of your wonderfully full holiday. I love the blurry photos, what a great touch. xo
ReplyDeleteMothers do need a holiday after the holidays ;-)
ReplyDeleteloe the lghts and the tiny flags!
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I don't know what it means having three little kids so close in age. And I only vaguely remember the years when my boys were little, and I was so isolated and alone, and so busy just keeping afloat. But I've been loving every single moment AFTER those very early years.
ReplyDeleteI hear you! Love your thoughts and how you express them so beautifully.
ReplyDeleteI feel the same. I found a four year old photo of us decorating the christmas tree today. The baby on a blanket in one corner, a naked two year old on the table and a the four year old with pink cheeks and eyes like christmas tree balls. I felt both nostalgic and scared.
ReplyDeleteA very nice post- since I don't have children I can only imagine the feelings. I'm sure it is tiring- but filled with so much joy. Many hugs... xo
ReplyDeletei love the lights and the lighting in these photos !!
ReplyDeleteOh, the lights are like snowflakes. This delights me.
ReplyDeleteI share your sentiments because, indeed, life does go by so very fast.
i think anyone who has spent any time with young kids can understand that! it goes so quickly and this phase will pass. my daughter was 5 for christmas this year and it was first year she really understood presents, treats, and all the "stuff" of the holiday. it made it interesting.
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beautiful post. when i was teaching yoga, i used to talk about finding the silence underneath the noise, the silence that is always there... little did i know how much this practice would mean to me once i had children. and with twins and a third? goodness knows it must mean so much to you.
ReplyDeleteWhen my siblings and I were kids my parents would leave our breakfast out in bowls the night before (havregryn med rosiner ;-) ). They'd then let me, 'the big one', be in charge of finding+pouring milk onto it. It probably only gave them 10-15 extra quiet minutes in bed but my mom has always said that those were the most precious minutes :-)
ReplyDeleteLoved your post and blurry pictures.
i can still remember :)
ReplyDeleteand now it´s really a holiday when they all come to me- with grandchildren and i can be Mother again- mother who can hardly see straight anymore ;)
hugs!
those phototgraphs are just fine :)
ReplyDeleteI don't know how you people do it, to be honest with you. the patiente, the love... here's to you and your honesty, cheers!
love the photos!
ReplyDeleteA breath of fresh air for you...
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gosh, this is so true. all of it. we only have one at the moment, but it's still a little like you describe. i am breathing in the silence right now, it's pretty nice. as someone else above said, you are creating wonderful memories for your boys. hats off to you!
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