Sunday, April 25, 2010
i was saying it a while back - that i need to focus. i am still working on it, but i am far from what i would like to. that goes for my own personal goals and thoughts of the future, as well as for my family and everyday time and planning. i have been feeling a bit frustrated lately. for several reasons, but a lot of it has to do with that good old feeling of not being on home turf.
as i have mentioned before, my twin boys are having some learning difficulties, their language and social skills are not as good as they are supposed for their age. they are happy boys and not causing problems, only concerns and thoughts about how to help them the best way. but obviously there is a lot of considerations and decisions to be made all the time, and here i feel that my lack of language is a big problem (and yes, it is my own fault that my hebrew is best used for casual chit-chat, rather than talks with speech therapist, school psychologist etc. oh, but trust me when i tell you that i am the first to be hard on me for that these days). also, it is hard not to be able to understand the system and the way things work, and to not have as big a network as i believe i would have in denmark. any way, i need to focus on the goal here and not make it into my own personal what-else-should-i-have-done-differently-and-better. but i must admit that i have had a few days of banging myself in the head for a lot of things.
i hope your week got off to a better start than mine. i'll try and jump right back up on that big horse and get things under control. it's all about breathing. and focus.